isn't life crazy?

There has been so much crazy stuff to happen lately. About a month ago I met a guy (Martin). We had A LOT of fun and I really liked hanging out with him. Then I found out he's a traveling engineer and was leaving in January. About 2 weeks ago my dad went to jail. Then my aunt passed away from ovarian cancer. I thought that happiness just wasn't meant to be in my life at all. My heart has hurt constantly for a while now. I wanted to tell somebody, but I didn't know how. I backed down from everything - my friends, my family, church, God, etc.

Well, Martin is gone, dad is still in jail, Aunt Lisa is gone, and I'm not ready to enter back into church, but I'm the happiest I've been in a while. I did meet someone that I like A N D likes me back! He actually likes me for me and isn't trying to play the whole "friends with benefits" scene that I've seen for the last 3 guys I've been with. I love being around him. He makes me laugh and feel good. We talk about everything. I don't hide anything from him and he doesn't hide things from me. He actually talks about what's on his mind. I finally found what I've been looking for. Everything that I've been wanting in a guy is in him. I couldn't ask for anything or anyone better. I'm glad I'm with him.

Some of my family doensn't like us together, but they can't make my decisions. They have done things to me and to others that I didn't like, but they didn't change their decision just b/c I didn't like it. I know I met my JT for a reason, and I'm going to stick with him.

Well, that's all for tonight. Good night!!