Current

Well well well - what to say. I'll keep it current. I've been through a lot in my life. I've changed a lot and been through changes. I now know that the one thing that never changed in my life was God. He has His hand upon my life. He always has and always will, no matter where I go. I recently went to a Ladies Conference at my church and God freed me from hurts that I thought would never go away. As many know - my aunt recently passed away with ovarian cancer. This is the first time I've written about it without breaking down. For the last 3 months I have hurt so bad. I made wrong choices and got into a lot of stuff like alcohol, drugs, lying, smoking, sex, stealing, sneaking around, and so much more. I tried to hurt God on purpose. I was upset from my aunt dying and I wanted to someone to blame for the pain. He was ok with that though. He let me run my course. This weekend I learned that God said I'm worth it. Me. Worth it. Worth Him coming and dying for me. Worth Him putting up with my hurts and my hurting Him. Worth me disobeying Him and getting lost sometimes. I'M WORTH IT!! Even more than that I know that YOU ARE WORTH IT. It doesn't matter what you've done or who you've done it with - you can still touch God. He's NEVER out of reach, out of listening range, out of communication, out of love, etc. YOU CAN'T USE UP GOD. Anyways - that's where I am. My heart right now is to please my Father. He has healed my broken heart and I worship Him and praise Him for loving me through this storm. IT'S GONNA BE WORTH IT. Heck - it already is worth it!!!